Counting my blessings
After a very long day, one full of many downs, I have many ups that I am thankful for. Like one of my favorite songs (I have too many to choose just one) says: Count your many blessings, name them one by one. Count your blessings, see what God has done. Where does one begin?
1) This being Memorial Day weekend, let’s just start with that. The amazing opportunity to be living here in the States, being raised here, having privileges that I take for granted every day that my parents did not have when they lived in Cambodia. Carpooling with my dad last week opened my eyes to his past, a past he has never shared with me before. Maybe he feels now that I’m older that I can handle his past. I don’t know.
2) The freedom we have here that other countries do not allow their citizens to have. Even when it seems our freedom is slipping away, little by little… I am thankful for the freedoms we do have. Since this is my baseball blog, I will say that I am thankful that we can be free to root for whatever team we want to. It makes me think of the speeches Jeremy Affeldt and Jamey Carroll made before the first Giants/Dodger game after the Opening Series. Like Jamey said, “There is no room in this game for hatred and violence.”
3) The amazing friends who have opened their hearts and welcomed me into their arms, their circles, and made me feel like I’m part of their families. And I’m not just talking about my baseball friends, but overall. I’m humbled and touched by the awesome friends I have made over the last five years, ever since I attended my first Dodger game. There are no words to describe my gratitude and my affection. Without them, I doubt my love for the Dodgers would have blossomed into what it is now.
4) The incredible opportunities God has given me over the last two years. When I found out two years ago that I was going to lose my job, I didn’t know what I was going to do. Through His guidance, I went back to PCC to try to finish my courses for the library technology program. I signed up for one class thinking it was one thing, and completely surprised by what it turned out to be. That was a blessing in disguise, as that laid the foundation to where I am now. At the time, I couldn’t see where God was leading me. I just had to trust Him and let Him lead. “Trust in the Lord with all thine Heart, and lean not to thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6 (I’m quoting it from memory, so please forgive me if I got that wrong). Or as I am reminded by the scripture on Lance Cormier’s glove, “For I the Lord thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee: fear not, I will help thee” (Isaiah 41:13). I am amazed as I look past and see how God has directed and provided and led.
5) Similar to the one above. I am thankful that I have a roof over my head, food on the table, a car to drive, and a job to go to every day. Enough said. I think.
6) I am extremely thankful for every game that I am privileged to go to. Even before, when friends would call me, e-mail me, text me, saying they have an extra ticket. I was always grateful for the opportunity to go when I otherwise could not go. Again, there are no words to express my gratitude. I wish I could repay them back for their kindness and generosity. Maybe one day. And I hope to one day pay it forward to someone who is in a position like I was.
7) I am thankful for every kind action, every kind word. You never know what a person is going through and what can brighten their day. Sometimes I look back and think, did I do enough? Did I say please and thank you and express my gratitude? And sometimes, all I can do is try to pay it forward. A kind smile. A kind word. A random act of kindness. Sometimes I wish I could do more. Sometimes I wonder if I did enough.
8) Like the first point was, I am thankful for all the men and women who put their lives on the line for our freedoms and liberties. The ones in uniform. The ones who aren’t. The ones who face situations we can never imagine. The ones who make the ultimate sacrifice. The ones who make sacrifices every day of every sort of variety.
9) I am thankful for the opportunities to have met so many Dodger players in the last five years. Well, technically four I guess since I didn’t start going to autograph signings until 2007. This is my fifth full season as a Dodger fan. There are a few players I have met several times and I’ve always wondered if they remember me or recognize me. I’ve always thought, they see so many fans and sign so many autographs … why would they remember me? As you can well remember from the Beach Caravan… some do.
10) I am thankful for every day. Even when some mornings I don’t want to get out of bed and face the day. There were times when I just wanted to bury myself under the covers and never come out. There were times where I wonder what was there to look forward to. Now I am just thankful for every moment and every day. And I am thankful for the people I have in my life. It’s hard sometimes at the stadium to stop and talk to everyone I want to talk to. It doesn’t always happen that I get to talk to everyone and say hi. And now that the games I attend are few and far in between, I look forward to each one even more. And I look forward to seeing familiar friends and meeting new ones.
Even when every thing is going wrong and nothing seems to be going right… I just have to remember this…
GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME.
AND ALL THE TIME, GOD IS GOOD.